i need to tell everybody. i really need to slim down. im a loser if i dont lose 10kg in 2 month's time. i need to rmb what i promised baby footballer. he gain weight i lose weight. really really. weight is stressing me up. i need to lose weight. okay bye go and do exercise now!

北鼻我好想你北鼻我好想你北鼻我好想你北鼻我好想你北鼻我好想你北鼻我好想你北鼻我好想你

went to read xiaxue's blog just now. this was the first time i've been browsing it slowly and read those wordy wordy posts. reason being there's just so many people are saying that I look like her so much. my classmates, the church mates and the colleagues at work place. she's a nice girl, in my point of view. after reading her blog, i guess i will not feel irritated or annoyed or digusted when people address me as xiaxue again. cause she's real, real by telling people how to use photoshop on top of admitting she's using it. and mumbling to herself 'Omg, i cant believe im telling you this. afterwards everyone's pictures will be so nice appears in their blog and i will be out of job.' and real by showing her face without make ups, i believe these encourages a lot of girls who's not satisfied with their physical looks. and many stuffs. yea. i find rich too.........

I am not sure how long will this last. I am really confused. Now you are back to the one like how you used to be. Is this love, baby? 一切又变得跟以前一样 我需要见到你 一切才会不一样 p/s: I will wait for you to change, for me. I believe that day will come, doesn't matter how long.

我了解一个人突然离开为自己的梦想而奋斗的地方有多么难过 因为只要我想起来心里也会也难过 我喜欢看一个男人认真的样子 工作的时候就是工作 上课的时候就是上课 吃饭的时候就是要对着饭碗一丝不苟生怕别人抢走他的食物 我爱的就是这种男人... 很美丽 我更喜欢想象你你拿筷子的样子 因为我拿筷子很不标准 我也喜欢回忆你用筷子帮我盛面条的样子 我很想你 几时才能见到你 p/s: 幸福的距离

射手座：All you can kiss！ 热情如火的射手座，接起吻来也是热情洋溢，充满了爆发力。射手的人行事光明磊落，不喜欢偷偷摸摸，接吻这种代表爱意的行为，在射手来说根本不必躲躲藏藏。如果他爱你，如果他想吻你，那么不管ANY TIME或ANY PLACE，他都会毫不犹豫的送上一吻，对你表达他的深深爱意。如果你无法接受这么随兴的方式，或是因怕羞而一把推开他，虽然他不怕挫折且有再接再厉的精神，但几次之后，他可是会恼羞成怒的喔! 最喜欢的接吻地点：任何地点，只要感觉来了就马上行动 HAHAHAHA THIS IS SO FUNNY. VERY TRUE!

SCHOOL IS SO DAMN SUPER DUPER FUN. I MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE. TO LIVE WITHOUT MY BESTY MARCUS LEONG! HAHAHA K LA K LA. CLASSMATES ARE NICE, HOPE I DONT SAY THIS BECAUSE IT'S EARLY. HEHE. WENT TO MEET BESTY ON MONDAY AS WELL AS YTD! UPDATED OUR POLY LIFE TO EACH OTHER, SEEMS THAT MINE IS SO MUCH BETTER THAN HIS! WOOHOOO! YTD WAS ONLY THE THIRD DAY! BUT WE CELEBRATED HAFIZ 20TH BIRTHDAY! HAHA. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAFIZ!

Im thinking back about the first day we met. we were in the lift in Mkal, was going up to the cinema. you looked at me asking what age was i. I answered you and gave a very disppointed look when you shook your head and said im young. I thought you were like a joke, judging people, always thinks that you were good at everything. that was the first impression you gave me. i know you din have a good impression of me too cus i was late for half an hour on that day, our first date. I didnt expect the footballer I first knew to be my future boyfriend. you were such a playboy, yea that's what I thought again. I really really din know, we could have come this far. you came to sg, to visit me. that's sweet i can say. making the people around me to envy me wasnt my aim, i dont think that way, didnt at all. I would choose not to know so much about you, so i dont have to love you so much. we could been just playing with each other. now, you are dragging me into deep shit, everyday thinking about what you are doing all sorts of shits. you stole my heart away. baby what's our problem these days? I know we have lack of time to talk after my sch have started. if i have a choice, i want to talk to you every minute. i know baby you will never blame me and you actually scold me when i dont pay attention in class. i know you want the best for me. you said im childish to think that you are leaving me if we din get to talk to each other for a day. im sorry to think that way, it's because you gave me so much unsecure feelings. why did you treat me so coldly last night, i believe you did on purpose. you want me to leave you, and you wanted me to open my mouth instead of you, but i wont compromise, i will never do that. i told you i was really sad, you told me you were too. cus you miss me yet cant get to see me and dont have money to raise me. i was really touched. i cried like a mad woman. cus you dont ever say out the thoughts in your mind. i really dont mind baby i really dont. i wont lie to you again, never ever. im going home now, to wait for your return.

你知道吗 爱你并不容易 好多话不说出去 就是怕你负担不起 一路上有你 苦一点也愿意 就算是为了分离与我相遇 我的爱早已超出你预期

he's the man i always thought who is nice but actually he's not hahaha

i miss eating ice cream with footballer

with lynette

TOD'S bracelet

okay! town to meet lynette soh ytd before i went to work. we got plenty to update each other. things happened. not only her hair style changed, the way she talks has show plenty of ripeness than the past. came home baby's angry. im sorry. its because i lied too many times till he give up to trust me):

woke up by lindarling's call this morning. she skipped sch again! im really unhappy when she doesnt attends sch on time, serious. nvr change. went to meet her at yishun to collect her student pass. chanced upon caifang and ziqun were doing boy's town donation there. haha. laughed, donated. took the same bus down to town, collected my pay. waited besty to reach after his np orientation. im really patient since i have a boyf-.-. ate kfc alone and chanced upon lynette soh! haha. we are fated! catch ups with besty as well though its been recent since we met. watched Fast and Furious 4 with him. nice movie. we kept imitate how the guys talked in the show. darn stupid. okay, now my turn to wait for my baby to return home. so he would forget what happened ytd... sigh

E&X

alicia lynette nana kim ethel

me&ethel with kim's smile and breast

lyn nana kim

farewell to alicia.

sweet smile :D

kim is doing sth not right. hahaha

kim and ethel.

吵架的时候想如果我们天天都能好好的 不吵架了天天在想是不是已经没有话可讲 我好麻烦 自己都不懂心里的想法 我要的到底是什么？ 海的那一边 乌云一整片 我很想为了你快乐一点 可是亲爱的你怎么不在身边

我只希望你能明白.. 我不想后悔... 我的心你总是不能明白 我总是忍着让着在乎着.怕惹你生气怕你上火. 这是爱还是习惯？ 我总是想象以后的我们.环游世界的我们 这一天会来吗？ I will bear with all the consequences which I need to take even being with you sends me to heaven.

Im a duper fat shit!

I want to slim down!

baby it's been 4 months. you taught me many. not necessary to speak when you love someone. treasure is always from heart. we dont speak for our future. we show it. im childish to demand so much. im sorry. everything saying once is enough. you taught me how to trust. i learnt. the footballer in my heart now is totally different with the one i used to know. i misunderstood you. i din know. now i do. you are not a playboy. i feel really bad whenever the scenes reminds me of what i thought about you. they are so untrue. i always make you angry. your words are always nasty. i accept it. i listen to your lectures. i calm myself down to always let you scold. i turned soft. i compromise. cus i know it'll never work if both of us are so bad tempered. so i gave in. i take a step back. i hope my baby you know. everything is because i love you. too much.

081208 X&N

H4M. footballer & i

CONFUSED!

i cant take this anymore. distanced relationship brought me many problems, mentally. i miss footballer so much. i really think this doesnt suit me, i need to see him, see him everyday by my side. i always suspect about this and that when it is not necessary AT ALL. idk what's wrong with me when i deeply knowing that TRUST is needed in a relationship, esp distanced one. i hate this. i really miss him. this is not sth out of random, i've been thinking this for veh long but the answer i gave myself was always, i cant live, if living is without you. i dont bare to leave you, i will never do! we are still gg to meet in HK in may and travel to bangkok in august and japan for the next chinese new year. so baby i will do this, i will trust, listen, respect, miss you, earn money, study hard and thinking about those times you and i had together! okay. enough of saying this, im still gg to post you the sweet stuffs im gonna buy wherever i see them. ily. and this, my dearest besty changed a girlf. though i scolded him but i respect his decision since he find it pointless to stay on when there's no more feelings. i will always support you! that's fast, isnt it? besty you shld start reflecting on what i've said to you. i cant picture if footballer is like you, omg. no matter how bad i find it, you are still my besty, so i will be unreasonable and support you. haa. okay. meeting him tmr to our sweetest secondary sch to collect O cert and stuffs. yeah so means we can eat the pork rib noodle from the buey buey aunty agn! anw, i love my besty always. we'd never change, for this entire lifetime.

baby dont make me regret

baby's retarded face. imu. like a kid, eating lollipop

excited baby and i, chanced upon a soccer match

on the way back home. jap VS sg

he drinks 3 bottles of 1.5L ice mountain everyday

trying to act like seeking attention.

stepping onto the footprints he had stepped converse&adidas

footballer's cute face

he finishes this bowl of laksa in 20 seconds time

boyfriend at clarke quay

footballer's focussing.

drained. eating donuts

$1 ice cream and we were happy enough

footballer's always like an old uncle reading newspaper

on the sofa when i barked him not to.

I love you, I really do.

footballer's sick at the moment. sore throat fever running nose. he's feeling very very unwell. physically, emotionally. he needs my company, im not there. im sorry. baby you must always remember how strong you asked me to be in the life without you. im learning to be strong so must you. you are older so please behave yourself like how an old hack does. grow up and face the obstacles in life. face those futile attempts. i dont wanto see you like this, like an useless guy without knowing his aims in life. im here to shine you up. im always standing by you. im not giving you stress. i wont leave you. im not materialistic. im still loving you if you dont give me a single cent in the future. i dont need a lexus. I JUST WANTO BE WITH YOU!

p/s: 北鼻别难过.不要彷徨.因为你有我