CONFUSED!

i cant take this anymore. distanced relationship brought me many problems, mentally. i miss footballer so much. i really think this doesnt suit me, i need to see him, see him everyday by my side. i always suspect about this and that when it is not necessary AT ALL. idk what's wrong with me when i deeply knowing that TRUST is needed in a relationship, esp distanced one. i hate this. i really miss him. this is not sth out of random, i've been thinking this for veh long but the answer i gave myself was always, i cant live, if living is without you. i dont bare to leave you, i will never do! we are still gg to meet in HK in may and travel to bangkok in august and japan for the next chinese new year. so baby i will do this, i will trust, listen, respect, miss you, earn money, study hard and thinking about those times you and i had together! okay. enough of saying this, im still gg to post you the sweet stuffs im gonna buy wherever i see them. ily. and this, my dearest besty changed a girlf. though i scolded him but i respect his decision since he find it pointless to stay on when there's no more feelings. i will always support you! that's fast, isnt it? besty you shld start reflecting on what i've said to you. i cant picture if footballer is like you, omg. no matter how bad i find it, you are still my besty, so i will be unreasonable and support you. haa. okay. meeting him tmr to our sweetest secondary sch to collect O cert and stuffs. yeah so means we can eat the pork rib noodle from the buey buey aunty agn! anw, i love my besty always. we'd never change, for this entire lifetime.