8mths. 243days. apart. fights. distrust. arguments. no kiss. no hug. no sex. i forget your look you forget mine. miss is not enough to mean how much we miss each other. when a couple quarrels. a cuddle will solve everything. apart. what can you do. nothing. quarrel more and more. worse is getting worse. i thought you are the one giving me confident all this while. i din know you felt so terrible. you make me so lost. baby why cant we always remember the things we've been through. so tough. so deep. so true. we are unlike the other couples. they act. they drama. they pretend that they are pure. we dont hold our pride towards each other. we joke. we play. we laugh at the clowns on the road. we say our own friends are retards. baby. iloveu. ireallyneedyou. idontwantanyone. iwantyou.

currently at some ulu lan shop with friends. its been so long since i felt so happy like this, time with them is always happy. i almost forget that i have a boyfriend. maybe that's what makes me happy. okay, sneaky nana went out in the mid night. finally am naughty for once since this 10 months that im attached. pls dont misinterpret that i love footballer no more, it is at least true that being single really make you feel relaxed. upon here you must be wonder have footballer and i broke up? and the answer is no, sorry to disappoint you but we really love each other. time that we separate makes me forget how do you even look like. baby i really miss you!

look at baby's hair! what's wrong? hahha he look like monkey! i was in class teeheee! i finally realised that 200 over days is really long. finally me and baby have not seen each other for 4 months exactly. 4 mths. how long it was. i forget how i went through alone without you by my side. i look so strong in the surface. i hatet to get sympathy from anyone. but there are times for me to broke down. 我真的很需要他在我身旁我么有辦法頂天立地自己面對全部. whoever beside me i thank them very much but it is really different with my boyfriend. my bestie always concern. but that's not enough i believe you all understand what a boyfriend would do and you'd feel loved. im really very lost. im not gonna see him till next feb. pls imagine. god. if you know im praying to you everyday just hope that time would pass a little bit faster. like the joke bestie's exgirlfriend had told him. i wanna throw the clock out to the window. sigh. you all really dont know how i feel. i almost forgot how does footballer look like. i have the picture of him in my heard the last time i saw him. i kept repeating the same thing in my mind remind myself to rmb his face. i so much right now to touch his face. the full of mostache face. the face has its thrones cus his mostache is always not well cleaned. he always scold me when i did sth he asked me not to and always scolded me harder for not doing the things he asked me to. but he's always there to teach, though he lectures at times. i rmb that's this day, when footballer's mom and i were eating lunch in the kitchen and he was then done eating, so he went to the living room to watch tv. then he shouted my name and asked me to watch some part of the show, it was a hilarious one. but i was eating with aunty, i din know should i just go to the living room cus its a kinda of disrespect to his mom. so i went to the living room only when aunty asked me to. when i went to the living room, the hilarious part of the show had ended. footballer was furious and shouted at me vigorously. even his mom said that his temper CMI. he ignored me for so long no matter how i apologise and expalin myself. but after awhile, he asked me to bring the mineral water bottle to his room, i did it. then he imitated the show that i missed. it was a joker contestant singing clown-ly. he used the bottle as the mic. made me laugh like mad. then we were back to normal and laughed at each other. yes, you must be thinking sucha a small thing also will be mad at me. that's the weird boyfriend i love. footballer, No.24!

finally, the first week of school has ended. i just feel so weird in the new class without noticing any symtoms. monday i was even down. i bet non of you felt the same as me. forget it. sch is just sch. make no contributions to my life besides to learn. i have rach tricia anna jes hm they all anw. moreover, alot more friend outside. monday morning met rach to sch tgt. after school went to have lunch with tricia. tues met tricia to sch tgt. after school met marcus for lunch. weds walk to sch myself. marcus said he wasnt feeling well in the afternoon when i actually wanted to eat waffle ice cream. no choice went to panjang da bao for that poor boy. bought otah his hse stairs and it taste suck! his sis went to fetch us to khatib. near my hse teeheee! to fetch the boyf. went to have dinner tgt. and they took me home! good! guess what! zhangxu me is totally not a pro liar. my lie would always poked by the victim or i poked myself. walauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! sry footballer. haha i know you have forgiven me. i know you cant afford to lose me! lurb chu! meeting cf and lynette ltr. for dinner at town. got to fill in the PR form and prepare for tuition for linda baby tmr! kay, life's so slow without zyp. 124 days. please!

happy time! click for larger view. i miss you crazy i worked overnight at the bund. F1 event was so busy so exaggerating. they removed everything in our res for JOHNNIE WALKER. kim told me she worked for 18 hrs each day. siao. sat supposed to be dylan's birthday. too bad i got to work. promised bestie to meet him for breakfast the morning after i knock off but i was too tired. went home to sleep and met mal matt and pohshen at timah in the afternoon. tues stayed at home to tuition for jason as his fye is coming. ytd was baby's off day. so i stayed at home in the noon ti webcam with him. evening headed to bugis to meet caifang. shopped and salam. took bus to town to have our dinner. time with her was always fast. we could just talk cock all the way and gek each other by our funny stories. now i just came back from amk. had fish&co with bestie as his driving lesson was conducted at yck. caught phobia2 with him as well. both his treat. how sweet of him. see, told you no girlfriend is GOOD! haha, oppps, say till am like so bad. lol, am not the one hor! we bought naughty G from fairprice as rachel told me the drink will make ppl horny. so bestie and i shared this can of naughty G and we both gave those exaggerate horny illusions. hahaha. actually totally no feel lo! eh rach smlj you okay bo! okay he accompanied till 86 came and he took train back home.