when can we so stop all these? i think im on the way to depression. i cant function my brain cells like how i could. even the word depression i went to check what is that in english called from chinese. i kept dwelling on the same thing everyday. i know i should'nt. not that myself want to be emo and upset. idk. im scared. so many things. headache headache. no one can help me. footballer had just returned to tsingtao. back home make him busy. tmr there's dinner at fine dinning with his mom and friend. the day after tmr there's a family dinner at the friend's place. the day after tmr's tmr is the grandma's Bday. and me nana is stuck in singapore living a miserable life which she herself cant even figure out the reason why. starting sch. uts. not prepared at all. work. tiring. sacrificing my PLAY TIME! fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck!!!!