somebody call 911... kept singing this on the way home just now as i went to meet bestie and mal matt at timah. i pass vodafone to mal as his sis needs it. irc played fire burning so i sang along. played pool, them i mean. marcus: bestie dont you think i play pool is damn handsome? me: i think my boyfriend is handsome-r.. mal&marcus: = = im sorry bestie, i really didnt know that you dislike zyp this much. since the first day you knew i had a boyfriend. you read my blog. i elaborated how whicked he was. i really didnt know how much you care about me and i insisted that you never did. today i then know you mind so much that your bestie has a lousy boyfriend. not lousy on the surface or shall say he's perfect on the surface but the way he treats me. i admit i said things to seek your attention and you knew i was, but you still cared. we are growing since 5 years back. you see me become a big girl. you dont wish me to cry over a guy, over anything. i know. i voiced my pov on your relationships told you how much i do not wish what to happen. you didnt comment any on me as i thought mine is perfect to you and you dont say a word was because you simple didnt care, it wasnt any of your business. but today i realised am wrong, very. i have a selfish mind, i want ppl to know how close me and my bestie is and hoping that am always the most impt to you despite you have a girlfriend anot. am sorry alright. i love you always my brother marcus leong. im sorry linda, i know i cared too much about my boyfriend. you was right, my blood is full of zyp. everything i do i think of him. before i go anywhere also needa ask him. i thought you understand me. cus nana is sucha love sick girl. i know that you know. actually you do. you just being worried about me because i just went in too deep, too far till you cannot take it. am sorry. you are my another baby in life. i need you. today, i called marcus and cried, nth regarding zyp but you. i care, i really do. i thought i will be happy enough as these days me and zyp didnt quarrel at all. but i didnt know i would have problems with so many of you because of my boyfriend. i will continue loving him but trying to pull myself up alright. i know you love me and care about me and thus being angry. i will always remember what you said just now. thanks baby! to mal: i didnt ever lied to you. i just did not mention anything about it cause i knew you wouldnt want to know it. i had never thought you would know it by an accident. well, i can open my heart and talk to you, about the truth. i dont mind. that's nothing wrong to love someone and give up some things. i admit, i did selfish. to all my friends who concerned about my relationship stuffs. i thank you deeply from my heart.