i just received a call from marcus bestie. he went back to malaysia again. at such an hour, he just came out from the custom, how can people not worrying about him... we still mind so much from each other, despite the fact that both of us have gone through the things which we didnt want each other to go through. the hardest stage in our life, in this year, it just happened. we used to wonder so much about the consequences we need to face when it comes to us one day, we used to think how bad or irresponsible can that be.. but when it eventually happens, we found that its hard for us to face each other. i shouldnt blame him, he shouldnt scold me cus its just a certain stage we have to face sooner or later. whenever i feel upset, i would think of the happy things we shared, then i would be re-charged again. cus i know, no matter what, my besty is not far around me. some days ago, i still told pohshen and matt that i could have lead such a happier life in secondary school, if it was, without you.. but now i dont think this way anymore, cus i finally realised, being together as a whole, and the whole is only 2 person, it aint bad, its good. we know we are enough for each other, we dont need anybody else. i think everything would be better today if you are around, you are still in the same school as me.. when look around today, i finally realised i miss you so much. i told you i would be brave in poly and be happier without you. but only when the problems came, i know i need you.... over sucha long period, we dont meet up as often already. but what amazing is, we remember each other by heart. i know when i need help, he'd still be there, to support me, unconditionally. we still concerns so much about each other though we are sacarstic towards our relationship partners, being jealous, being over-protective, being complacent, being not used to..... i miss my boyfriend, but i miss also you, my bestie, for today, wantedly.