i feel like writing a long post now. but actually there isnt anything in my mind. just remember a month ago, i was still complaining all sorts of stuffs regrading relationship here. after the trip to china, i realised there isnt anything for me to worry, so much. things that going to happen, i cant stop it from happening. things that not happening, it doesnt mean that it will never does... so i will let nature take its course. maybe you are wondering how come suddenly im so positive or see things through, let me tell you the biggest reason is, i know there's a position for me in his heart, a big important part. until everybody knows. minutes ago i've got so much to say cus footballer gave me so much... now zzz... i wanna die already. we quarrelled just now. i really didn't know, im so lousy. he's not proud of having me, not at all. what's avoiding for? idk. for what want to care about what his friend says. means he not confident in our relationship. im angry. i think it's time for me to re evaluate this relationship. its not the matter of distance. is about what you think about me. we made through so many obstacles, the long distance, you fly here i fly there. what was all that for? sometimes, you need to consider about my feelings too.. & today, i just realised, im so lousy, im not up to his standard. i think we dont match at all. we dont share the same perspective. i think love is about sacrificing for each other and ignores how the others look at you. sadly, you dont think so. i think we are not, suitable, at all..... pissed..

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OKAY EXCITING THING IS HERE AGAIN. SINGAPORE REPUBLIC POLYTHENIC YEAR ONE STUDENTS WILL BE HAVING A WEEK HOLIDAY DUE TO H1N1's RAPID SPREADINGS. IM NOW THINKING ABOUT WHAT AM I GOING TO DO IN THIS WEEK SINCE LINDA HAS RETURN TO TAIWAN WHICH I DESERVED THE SAD THING AS I SHOWED OFF TO HER ABOUT A MONTH's AGO THAT I WAS GOING TO SEE MY FOOTBALLER. BUT NOW......zzz MARCUS LEONG WENT TO KL TO SPEND TIME WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND. IM HERE DOING...WHAT? TSK

me nana is feeling veh happy now cus when i was in town just now i saw fionalove. we are so fated. hehehehehe

hello readers! there's an auntie sitting beside me, her name is Jeslin Tan, keep on talking about H1N1 in our school. very exaggerating. wanto go home. called her mom. now my class is all over about this case. ziwei is very neutral, he says that if we are fated to die, we will die. hahahahaha. ah jes really damn funny. hahahahaaha. i really want another holiday so that i can go and unite with my footballer! hahaha. i miss boyfriend. hahaha. the happenings in class reminds me of footballer's mom. that was the first case in qingdao, and she been to liqun, and footballer's mom went to buy lunch at liqun. then she scared, then call everyone she knows in liqun. wah. super exaggerating.

i have been wondering about this for veh long but simply cant figure it out why! everyday i take train to sch and come back. i see people coming out from the train rushing to nyp. maybe they stay at woodlands or clementi or even the east side. but i took train from yiochukang to woodland to go to sch. can anybody tell me why must people choose this way. we waste time on travelling. why cant i just go to nyp? why cant they just go to rp? why? footballer, why are we like having a distance between each other on top of the physical distance but emotionally too. zyp i miss you so muc. ! ! why!~

hello girlfreinds, i wont update the details about the china trip cus blogger is sucha slow uploader for photos! i will just upload them at http://blog.sina.com.cn/zlna12101023 if you cannot read chinese so sorry lo cus its a cina webbie. i wrote things for footballer to read also. heeee.

其实我很烦恼

只是你看不到

如果我也不开心

怕你转身就逃

3rd June day4. cabbed to baby's place early in the morning deeply knowing it will be an everyday routine for this 2 weeks. chit chatted in his back yard. he aske me to guess what tree is that i said it was water melon tree. he burst into laughters cus water melon grows underground. if it grows on a tree it'll eventually fall and break into pieces. ROFL! the sun is so striking but we werent hot. mom's cooking for lunch, my favourites again. i love her so much. dressed up. baby's going for an interview. three of us took a cab. baby sent me and 'mom' to taidong. she going to her shop and i was there to meet my childhood friends. i said good luck to baby when i alighted the cab and 'mom' laughed at me cus im uber cute and childish. hehe. i followed her up in the shopping centre. she asked me to take a look. showing how nice the clothes are. walau. haha. my girlfriends put on weight and they said i slimmed down. i showed them my diet pills made them wanna slap me. they are two bestfriends of mine. jiao and lyl

just look ar how naughty baby is.

是不是很登对？

four of us went to walk around the beach wood as lyl said she miss the beach after spending a year in shanghai-a beach less place. haha. boyfriend didnt appear to be embarrased but lyl did a little. he said wanna prove to me there nothing. lol. okay. it was such a long way. from this sea to another. we sat down and rest. jiao shared a jok, made footballer almost roll on the floor. haha.

i thank you. you dont angry.

let bygones bygones.

i love this place. baby's place back yard.

in the night. baby treated sis to eat at this fine dinning restaurant. uber generous boy.

they cleared out the misunderstandings happened in the past.

sis was too upset for me and over reacted. haha

baby still shared the stories when he was in sg with sis and showed off how many places he went and how many nice food he ate. sadly sis didnt enjoy that much as baby did cus i was still young when sis was here thus i couldnt bring her around as familiar as this march.

1st June.

day2. (actually i couldnt fall asleep the day before cus i got to see baby the next day) cabbed to the cross road near baby's place as he asked me to. i couldnt describe how i felt. just happy. playing hide and seek with i saw him. went to his place. met his mom. she doesnt quite somehow like daoming feng. very nice to me. went to this high class restaurant had lunch with his mom and mom's friend. aunts all uber nice to me. i didnt know im so important in baby's mind. there's a position for till he told all his friends and even mom's friends that i'd be back. went home aftermath. sweet stuffs at home. 劈柴院. walk walk jalan jalan. i love baby with his red shirt. dinner at red house restaurant. beef steak. we had a couple set. baby's lousy at forks and knife. i cut my piece for him and ate his. it was the 1st of June. childrens' day in china. many kids running around the res. baby and i were kind of annoyed by them cus we both hate kids. we played with them still, after all, we need to have a child in future.

2nd June. day3.

holding my hand when he's asleep.

the necklace baby bought me. zhong shan park for a stroll. amusement equipments. baby yelled like a baby. ''i wanna go home, let me go'' i laughed at him but didnt appear to be so brave eventually. after this fun period, we quarrelled. forgot about the details but knowing its pain he sent me to grandma's place and bought her a watermelon. hahaha he went off to meet his guys updatet them about this naughty girlfriend.