to my Hubby.

returning my hometown was a big big mistake. I shouldn't have know you, shouldn't have met you. I could be so much happaier today if we didn't ever know each other. If you give me another chance, I wont go out and play, and say goodbye to night lifes, never ever enter SOHO again. 你走进了我的生活，静止了我的心跳，退出了游戏 你照样过得很好，逍遥自在 You stole my heart and walked out of my life.

If I Don't Love You

I always ask myself if you are just a tool makes me forget about him. yes. I will always not forgetting him. But if I am not loving you, I won't be watching my phone all the time to wait for your call for long hours daily, since the day you had left, just to hear your voice. I grumbled to myself you have not been calling me at least two times a day, cause I've got no one to complain to. I forced myself to sit back on te sofa to watch a full soccer match, when I had never watch soccer for more than 10 mins and that's only when my dad or bro barked me along. I did that because I wanna know more about you. Yes, I am always like that, doing too much and think that what I do will always end with the expectation that I wanted. Because of you, I might have lost her. I admit all my wrong doings and believe that it's alr too late for me to turn back. I never mind the age gap between us despite the rumours going on and now, I am doing all I can to maintain this relationship, what else do you want?

You yelled in the phone just now, for not informing you that I was actually going out so late last night. Reason being, you didnt even care whether I am going out anot or with who or what time, cause the tone you were talking to me ytd just made my heart feeling colder towards you. & you said I was a liar, always like to fake myself up with so many lies, and what do I have to pretend, you dont know, because, I had never ever lie to you for once. You can direactly say that you feel jealous when I go out and please dont say you don't mind at all when you actually mind alot. I really gave up many just for you eventhough we are not in the same place presently. How do you expect us to last when promises are so easily broken, when we dont trust each other at all, when we almost been quarrelling everyday, and shouting at me is like a normal tone when you talk to others.

I am all to blame, cause I chose to love you